So starting in August of 2014 my ex and I had split up.... This was hard because I had a new tiny handsome 3 month old and my handsome and oldest who was 1; It was also hard because he moved out and I lost my family's living space because I couldn't afford 1 month by myself. My loss of the apartment and worry of my little boys being took a toll on me and I attempted suicide one day when they were at their Nana's....
While I thought I was dying I thought to myself of how better off everyone would be and then my boys shot through my head; I called my ex and told him for I was ashamed to have told my mom... I eventually called her, but my ex had gotten to her first so the ambulance was already on their way. I was in ICU for 3 days thinking of nothing, but my kids; I even begged the doctors to save me as soon as the ambulance had dropped me off in the ER.
My attempted suicide caused a CPS case to pop up and I was looked into; They were taking from my custody temporarily and given to my mom (The case closed a few months back though). Now the circumstances are... If I am psychologically, financially, and living stable with a vehicle of my own I can have them back by court orders.
I have worked at Wal-Mart, Amazon Warehouse, Brookstone, and Toys R Us...
All while bouncing houses and having no ride; now we see the internet issue because of house hopping. I am now currently about to start a job at Staples... I'm trying very hard to save up money to get my boys back so I might not be on here much and it might take me a while to draw because I'm trying to balance them over anything else; my boys are my everything... If I lose them my world will have no meaning to shine. I don't want anyone's pity or apologies because I know what I did was wrong and I want to make it better and fight for them. I want encouragement and support so if you want to say something make it motivational or encouraging please.
I honestly have to say... Being 21 and having two young handsome boys makes my life so much better and I wouldn't have it any other way... In fact... I spent Dec. 20th (my 21st birthday) with my boys; It was the best birthday yet.
So please understand why I am distant or why sometimes I get busy.